So I will try to be better at this so here is something that has been on my heart. I have decided after alot of thinking and praying to finish my college career before I go onto the mission field full time. I came to the realization that if I leave college now, ill never go back. I really hate school but I need that lil piece of paper. Ok now that that’s out there I can go on with my blog. I have been in Romans 7 today. Now I love the book of Romans but today I decided to do something I never do. I pulled out the message. I’m not a big fan on the message when it comes to reading the bible but I love how Eugene Peterson put Romans 7.
Romans 7:14-25 (The Message)
14-16I can anticipate the response that is coming: “I know that all God’s commands are spiritual, but I’m not. Isn’t this also your experience?” Yes. I’m full of myself—after all, I’ve spent a long time in sin’s prison. What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary.
17-20But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.
21-23It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.
24I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question?
25The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.
Now for all of you that just skipped over the word, please read the above. We think that the Apostles didn’t struggle. We try to please God with good deeds and works thinking we can win our way into his grace. I like what my pastor says. “We don’t wait to get into shape and then go to the gym…and we don’t wait until were good enough to follow God”. I have struggled so much in the past year, my ups and downs. I have struggled with what I’m gona do the rest of my life and when. I want to achieve great things in this life through our great God. I have battled my self and the flesh, knowing what is right and choosing to do wrong. We are at war with ourselves. I love what Paul says in Galatians 5
16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want.
Living in the Spirit…hmmm…well what is that? Paul answers that later in the same chapter of Galatians.
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.
Brothers and Sisters, we all struggle. We are at war with the evil spirits of this war…and ourselves. Let Christ live in you, through you. He is our hope, our only hope. He is the light in our darkness that can defeat our flesh with his spirit. Just my thoughts tonight.